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a place to begin his destinations.
the name's Zach. agree? :]

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NAME ZACH
ORIENTATION GAY
DREAMS A WONDERFUL STAFF
ENJOYS SINGING FRIENDS TO FRIENDS



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Past

a million ways of loving you.
waiting,
a past is in me. and now it's not going good.
convenient relationship. ouch!
desperation of buffet :)
discreet juggles.
we're once a soldier in gay o rama !
switch
multi shots of shooters?
plenty of irresponsible.


POSTPONED?!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010


Oh no!!!!!

Worst day of my life. (drama queen) it's sad to hear that this sunday, which is on the 28th March; a regret to inform the fellow TEAM SAPPHIRE that 'the bonfire' will be cancelled.


A supportive excuse:

"My family has encountered a death from Bandar."

I'm totally sorry for the inconvenience. i hope there will be no other barrier in future times. and i do apologize everyone for the sudden news.


LET US PRAY FOR HIS GONE.

your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


9:33 AM |
beach party?

Hey pure bloggers!

Miss the old time with BBQ in Lumut Beach.
One thing for sure, i can't for it. photos will arrive after the event.

(March 28 2010.)

Yes!!! i can't wait for it.

TEAM SAPPHIRE.


Here we go!

your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


1:21 AM |
Love Drunk?!
Friday, March 19, 2010

Dear Buddies,

Sorry for not updating any post this past few days. one thing for sure, i'm too busy with my friends alongside and i have no brilliant pen to note down what to write for my blog. as i were saying, love is like a weather forecast. it changes every single seconds!!! talk about weather, in Brunei here, we have a very good and friendly people... if you know what i mean.

And in my opinion in tarot, someone is fallen shot by the cupid's shotgun. this is utterly amazing and giving some new sightseeing. the remedy from my brain for today is:

giving someone it's own natural personality is a definitely a good start.


by sending a thousands of love flower bud from a man that nourish it ways to the milky heart of a woman.


love doesn't mean you need to broke each other's feeling. (if you know what i mean.)


this love comes with a lot of varieties. seek out more help from you, yourself.


All in all, protect yourself from influential diseases.

LIKE:

AIDS.

your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


1:52 PM |
CHRIS. OH MY!!!
Monday, March 15, 2010

ONE THING THAT GAVE ME A SHOCK IS:



NOT ONLY HE'S GAY.
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HE'S A SINGER IN YOU TUBE.
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HE MADE MY HEART MELTS.
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AND BONER ACHIEVED!


WANNA SEE MORE ABOUT HIM?!






1:21 PM |
cleaning up the plate.


Hello guys!!!

I'm back from watching a hell out of cool movie which is:

"EATING OUT 3 ALL YOU CAN EAT!"

remember this movie that i previewed from my previous blog?

just got the chance to download and watch it immediately. the movie was extravagant! i would give a full complete apple tree from the apple tree itself! all in all, previous series of Eating Out can't be compared to this one! hotter men available. and guess what? they're all openly gay!!! talk about this yeah! it made cry. when is my time to walk out from the closet case? well, consider i'm all out but not everyone notice about it. so yeah. that's it.

CHRIS SALVATORE


JOHN STALLINGS


MICHAEL E.R. WALKER


REBEKAH KOCHAN


DANIEL SKELTON


X
sorry, no picts for him.



your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.



1:07 PM |
what i'm getting after able to work.
Sunday, March 14, 2010

Every one wants something in their live.

Like me, i want something(s) too!!!

THESE ARE MY WISHLIST FOR 2010:


♥ KIA COUPE. (CERATO)


♥ LG LOLLIPOP


♥ BOYFRIENDS AND SCANDALS!


♥ LIFE'S GOOD.



what do you think?



your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


8:34 AM |
striking back for love?

Hello peeps.

Oh my god! seems like i missed the life..

(Of popularism.)

As i were saying, how's my new blog? by this blog, hoping i can have more love approaching around me. that's why i remake this blog. for the honesty, i don't really knew how to edit this. all thanks to a friend of mine, Nisa for the tutorials. If it wasn't for here, my blog would be dead. okay, new makeovers, new changes.
ONE MORE THING!

I'm running a marathon starting yesterday morning. this marathon is like pursuing my dreams to not sleep for one week. even though i failed to conquer, i will not give up. sigh! what a dream. maybe i'll start again . starting from now. and for tomorrow, i'm going to purchase some Kapersky Anti - Virus System.
(been nagging with my dad since two days ago.)

HAVE A GOOD NIGHT TO ALL THE STUDENTS!!!
ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS.


your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


8:25 AM |
making history.
Saturday, March 13, 2010

HELLO!

sigh.

now my grandfather is not in a good shape.

i'm worried. nah, not to worry.

he's gonna be alright!!!


your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


3:41 AM |
SIGNAL FIRE!!!
Friday, March 12, 2010

Hello again guys...


GUESS WHAT?!

Daniel's back from Kuching.
(for your information, he's my good bud from the same team. meaning we played Midnight Maximum Tune 03 together!)

and the results is out!

"HIS DAD MEDICAL PROBLEMS CAN'T BE SOLVED IN NEITHER IN KUCHING NOR BRUNEI,
SO HE'S GOING TO SINGAPORE TO MAKE A TREATMENT."

the reason why i'm posting this up is to give support to him and his family.
not by money or whatsoever...

the main thing is to pray for his good health and so..


MAY GOD BLESS HIM WITH GOOD LIFE AND LONGER LASTING LIFE!

AMIN!

your friend and your lover,


Zachary Hawkins.


10:49 AM |
hard to get?

Being gay is not a likable to others.

you know why?

it's easy.

people don't accept us.

like me... it's pretty but painful to be accepted as one.

"it doesn't matter whether you are one or not. what matters is that's you and yourself."

you can go higher, you can go deeper...

but in the end you'll fall to somewhere unsafe.

life is full of drama, and we all know it very well.


your friend and your lover,


Zachary Hawkins.


1:22 AM |
my wishlist.
Thursday, March 11, 2010

Hello Guys!

damn, when this title is post up,

WE ALL GET OUR CHANCES...

talking about wishlist, i love them so much. they can be anything such as

CLOTHING.
CELLPHONES.
CARS.
COCKS.

a whole lot of 'C's !!!

well, today my wishlist is about Cars.
(boring)

I have some TOP 5 in my hand:

SCION XB


DAIHATSU MATERIA

KIA SOUL


HYUNDAI i800


NISSAN CUBE





your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


10:28 PM |
the boy who never sleeps.

Hello again.

shhhhhh~

it's 6:10am. and i'm still not sleeping. why?

GOING TO THE CEMETERY.

gee, never been this 'awake since college times.'
(Taylor's College)

sigh, sometimes i miss college. (sometimes)

FOR FRIENDS AND NOT FOR ASSIGNMENTS.

your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


2:06 PM |
one more month, that's it!!!

I'm here to say one thing:

I MISS BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP.

fussssssssssss....

relieved.

"like my title said, one more month and i'm single for one year!"

when am i going for another session with
MR. RIGHT?!

"seriously saying, i'm not that desperate, but there's always this thing called temptation!
i hate that word.. it sucks real time.
trying to forgive the people who invent the word.
anyways, he's a genius!!!
whatever man, i'll just be whoever i am.
whether people call me a fag or homo, it doesn't matter now..
'cause i'm proud of who i am.
and pleased to all the anti-homo for hating me. you'll get one soon! xD
wow, a shout out that short turns out to be huge!"


and why am i not sleeping at this time?

IT'S 4 A.M. IN THE MORNING FUCK!

your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


12:03 PM |
LICKING SOMETHING FOR A LONG TIME!


11:41 AM |
pushing the connection world to the upper east side.



xoxo. heard that before dude/dudette?!

fucking amazing yeah....

would like to introduce you to NOKIA'S upcoming project;

NOKIA BOOKLET 3G!!!






11:28 AM |
alerts.

Hello Buddies.

just a gentle reminder that i'll be out from home for some days. will be back!!!


ANYWAYS...


ALICE IN WONDERLAND IS MY NEXT TARGET.

your friend and your lover,

Zachary Hawkins.


12:04 AM |
HOTTIE OR NOTTIE?!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010


8:49 AM |
food or mod?


HELLO AGAIN BUDS!

what can i have for today?! it's late for me. i'm LATE !!! can't believe i woke up in 3:30pm. isn't that really too much? (still unemployed)

don't call me spoilt 'cause i'm not one of them.

"i have no money. but my parents do."

watching TV is another thing for me.. wow. it's been some limit i'm watching series...

today, i watched The Biggest Loser Asia, and it's really a motivation for me. (it does, really.)

Sadly, Carlo, my personal favorite didn't manage to win and i hate to see David won the spot becoming first Asia's Biggest Loser. damn !!!

"who cares. he's already rich, and now he's 100, 000 USD Dollars richer. fuck."



another story. . . i'm so sick today... (literally sick) due to less smoking. <3>



have a good night buddies!

your friend and your lover,


Jay Jay.


12:52 AM |
aftermath of wood's research...
Monday, March 8, 2010

hello folks.

**sniff**
(it was plain cheese)

wow. a total cry-out for the movie Redwoods. it's too amazing to be told. what is all content is for you to find out the story. sigh.... love it. if i were given to rate with stars; i would give 4.45 out of 5. the reason why i almost live it to the fullest is because movie location and emotional skills is present in my mind. and the other remaining is; it made me kill myself when it comes to introduction. as usual... if the intros are not appealing, chances of getting me off from the film is 99.99 % !!!!

okay then... that's all for today buddies...



your friend and your lover,

JayJay.


10:15 AM |
do you feel eating disorder? cure is coming!

EVERYONE LISTEN UP!

(i do realize sometimes i acted like a circus MC)

anyways.... GUESS WHAT?!

to the heartthrobs of gay movies;
EATING OUT 03: ALL YOU CAN EAT! is coming down.

"Brunei-ans; eat your heart out!"



PLOT SUMMARY

Tiffani and her friend Casey try to lure the gorgeous Zack with a phony online profile using the image of Tiffani's buff ex, Ryan... which works fine until the real Ryan shows up. Only through some fancy footwork, advice from his Aunt Helen and mentor Harry, and a daring sexual escapade can Casey figure out how to set things right and perhaps even find the love he's been seeking.




8:42 AM |
the smell of oak?


what's this all about? "Redwoods" is a gay-based movie which one of the movies combined hero for old movies like Broke back Mountain, Another Gay Movie alongside the sequel. Make the Yuletide Gay, etc. what made me too functional is the way the movie runs. i would say this movie is a homosexual version of "The Notebook." if you really wanna know more about this, feel free to tag in your comments... and for people who lives in Brunei, you can get it anywhere nearby.. (Audio Store i mean)

fyi.... there's something cool about this... hold on.


PRODUCED BY DAVID LEWIS. (creator of Rock Haven)

Everett played by Brendan Bradley

Miles played by Tad Coughenour

Chase played by Matthew Montgomery

"Both original and incredibly romantic, Redwoods tells the story of an already-partnered man whose love is tested when a mysterious drifter passes through his small Northern California town. Everett (Brendan Bradley) and Miles (Tad Coughenour) are in a comfortably platonic relationship, which is held together by raising their son. While his family travels out of town, introverted Everett finally has time to himself that is until Chase (Matthew Montgomery), a striking writer, pulls up in front of his house. Shot amidst ancient Redwoods, David Lewis (Rock Haven) film is a stunning ode to the power of love."


8:29 AM |
trigger me with your QUESTION.


HELLO.... (goodbye for later)

sad sad sad sad. all the way down! guess what?? it's me with the addiction of having bad tempered almost every time. is this the changes i own when i turns 21? oh hell please... i don't want this as my ability. god knows i'm not this kind of person. well, even my close friends defined me as their angels. what's wrong with me?

POSSIBILITY:

i'm angry maybe i'm single? (BULLCRAP!)

i'm angry maybe because i'm jobless??? (might barge in a little)

or maybe that's who i am in the truth....

no way no way no way. . . . .

some body please cure me from this misery. i'm a gifted boy who've been told many times that i specialize FRIENDSHIP BONDER. where is this thing coming from anyways? as i remembered, i know myself since forever. and too much information; i'm
quiet as a dead man
(in first life till Secondary 3) WHAT HAPPENED???

whatever that i'm facing right now. it doesn't matter. as long as i have friends....

WAIT.... (that's god of greed) omfg.
ONE OF THE SEVEN SINS.

oh dear..


your friend and your lover,


JayJay.



5:58 AM |
DRINKKKKKK!!!

Hey Buds.

what's up?! it's been awhile...
i've been drinking once again. it feels good to be bad...
wait!!!!! does drinking even counts as a bad habit? no? yes?
wtf then. screw this. i don't care.
current news: my air-con is having PMS. she only iced half of the living room. i need air-tampons for her... :D

talk about relationships.... i'm still single. but i've fulfilled my love fantasies by daring some friends to kiss (French ones) each other. I TOTALLY LOVE IT!!! it cures my one year of lonesome and boring single days!!!

forget about those, let's talk about acting. i love ACTING! totally owned it if it's PORNOGRAPHY. <3>

i'm so excited this week. happy go lucky all the way after re-uniting with my parents after the uneventful fights.. why? (HAD A HUGE FIGHT AND WENT INTO A TANTRUM AND BROKE MY OWN TOILET DOOR. WHICH IS MADE FROM GLASS) what a mess yea? fuck me if i'm right. i've got some evidence.

and then it comes to party. where my title post is called 'DRINKKKKKK'

here's the story....

March 07 2010. bunch of some cool buds decided to crash at my house for some booze. it's actually not a party. some chillin' without drugs and trash talks. *well, there's alot of trash talks* (in Malay though) forget it, then after too much of booze, wait. it's not really enough though. LOL cause i had my 5th glass, these 2 buddies went tipsy to the milky highway. serious right? i think i can retain my World's Drinking Champion. (WDC) cool!!!!!

fuhhh~

sweaty here. (like i said, air lady is under repair... daddy's fixing.) :(


okay then... till here folks.


your friend and your lover,

JayJay.


12:01 AM |
goodbye daniel.
Friday, March 5, 2010

hello folks...

would like to say goodbye to Daniel!!!

it's sad that he has to undergo a tough time ...

his dad is having cancer...

may god bless him always yeah.


anyways,


keep on dreaming.


your friend and your lover,

JayJay.


9:33 PM |
KEEPS ME WIDE AWAKE AFTER...
Thursday, March 4, 2010

Hello to my few known buddies...


New year is over!!! like this is March. wake up dim wit. ain't no time to focus on dreams and whatsoever. what i want to regain my fingers in blogging. what happened to the guy who always blog? one thing i should say; i feel so missed out all these time.


(again and again)

keep dreaming.




your friend and your lover,


JayJay.


11:20 AM |